depression...

i have been so depressed this week. i cannot stop crying. so much bullshit is going on in my life right now i can hardly breathe! my husband, i love him, but he is just pissing me off and i am not sure how much longer i can take it. he is absent. just absent. and lately, when he is around, i find myself wishing he was absent. then his ex is being at total bitch. we are going back to court over child support and she makes it about all kinds of other bullshit. she is actually trying to take our time with the kids away. she is just an evil bitch who wants to use the kids to get back at my husband. i cannot take it. i am the only person who REALLY puts these kids first! then my in-laws try fighting with me and that is when i just lost it! so exhausted. work has not been much fun lately because i am so stressed out with home life that all i want to do is run away. i am driving in my car and out of nowhere, i just feel tears rolling down my face. the court date is may 15th and hopefully i will snap out of it then but i am a wreck. all i want to do is hold on to my babies and RUNNNNNNNNN! never look back and just protect them from all these psychotic people using them for their own agenda! sorry to vent but i am just falling apart. i feel like my world is breaking into pieces and i just want some freakin' super glue!!!!! please pray for us.